material list:   sautéd     ramen noodles, stale  i kept thinking about a compliment sandwiches, and how to make something palatable.      i finally felt like something real, something, something that wasn't   wo rking against me.  like i had   found  a part of me that i always knew  but never let it know me.  like in dirty dancing when Patrick Swayze did that     da n c e            move with  baby houseman,  like  that,  thats what i               wanted those phenomenology    .